A month ago, I wore my barefoot shoes to Crossfit. I had been encouraged by my dear friend and Crossfit coach TJ to get some firm soled weightlifting shoes. The day before I went to THE class, I ordered some, Prime-ed them, they were going to be there in 2 days. But I decided one more day of class with the toe shoes wouldn't hurt anything. So I went. We did a lot of pushing and pulling and heavy toe strain. I had no idea I did it, but I hyper extended my big toe on my right foot. The next morning I got up and ran 6 miles. My foot hurt, but I just chalked it up to tiredness. That night I was in excruciating pain in the ball of my foot and the joint.
For the next week I lived in denial. It was fine.....just run, and push through it. I had 2 races slated for November, I couldn't be injured. It's fine. It's fine.
But it wasn't, so much pain.....so I went to the doctor. No break, but need to be in a boot for 2 weeks. Bought the boot, wore it once and then Ellie chewed it up. So I didn't wear it. 2 more weeks of running less, but still running.......and still pushing it. Its not getting better. Still in denial....don't tell anyone......its fine, its fine. Inwardly the stress of wondering how I was ever going to run 2 half marathon distances when I couldn't even run a mile with no pain was eating me up. It's fine, its fine.
But its not fine. I am injured, and it wasn't until I forgot my prescribed anti inflammatory meds in CO that I realized how not fine it was. I AM INJURED, and if I don't stop and get this healed I am in trouble.
So, I had to do the hardest thing I have ever done, bail from not 1 but 2 races. I have never not done a race I have paid for. Even saying it now makes me want to cry. How is this happening?
I can't run, I am limited on the Crossfitting I can do, I am in a boot, and I don't know how long this is going to take.
Surprises are just getting started.
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