Faith Fulfilled

I have wanted to write this blog for a while, but really wanted to put some thought into it. Interestingly, it is much more difficult to get deep and meaningful when you are constantly distracted by a squirming little one needing something from you. Yet every time I am disrupted I am reminded that we have a precious little baby in our lives.

Before you read this blog, go back to February of this year and read the post "Mountains of Faith." I wrote that post in a time of our lives when the odds were stacked against us for having a baby. I was discouraged and felt at the end of my rope. In that post I gave it all up, gave it back to the Lord and made the decision to trust that God could do the impossible. I made a gesture of faith by purchasing a newborn onsie fully believing that someday the Lord would fill it even if it was through adoption or scientific intervention.

Two weeks later the Lord gave us Lily in the form of a digital "Pregnant," and 9 months later, she is here in the flesh.



Somedays, I am just in awe at how the Lord has blessed us. Deuteronomy 2:7 tells us, "The LORD your God has blessed you in all the work of your hands. He has watched over your journey through this vast wilderness. These forty years the LORD your God has been with you, and you have not lacked anything." Our infertility journey felt like a wilderness and yet the Lord never left us. As a matter of fact her precious form was already known. Psalm 139:13-16

For you created her inmost being; you knit her together in her mother’s womb. 
 I praise you because she is fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, 
 I know that full well. 


Her frame was not hidden from you when she was made in the secret place, 
When she was woven together in the depths of the earth. 
Your eyes saw her unformed body; 
All the days ordained for her were written in your book before one of them came to be.

Amazing!

The Lord works in mysterious ways especially in a world that is full of sin and sadness. The Lord's presence is still here and He blesses. Psalm 31:19 "How abundant are the good things that you have stored up for those who fear you, that you bestow in the sight of all, on those who take refuge in you." He has shown me how important it is to trust Him and to not worry. Luke 1:45 "Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!” I am overwhelmed with joy at how beautifully the Lord has fulfilled His promises to Bob and I.

The Learning Curve

We have almost reached the month mark and Lily is learning more and more every day. So am I. The learning curve with a new baby is incredible. Here is a list of the latest lessons learned on the journey of motherhood:

1. No matter how many burp cloths you have in your arsenal, when you need one it is always on the other side of the room.

2. Baby farts are sooooo cute especially when you watch the effort each one takes.

3. Sleeping when your baby sleeps is a myth to be sure. When in the world do you get anything done if you sleep when they do?? Her nap time is the only time I can effectively pay the bills, make the bed, do the dishes, vacuum, shower, get dressed, feed the dog, feed the cats etc. etc. Doing these things one handed is just not easy.

4. No matter what they tell you, breastfeeding hurts. End of story.

5. I thought for sure that in the middle of the night all I would have to do is get up when the baby cried, change her, feed her and then go back to bed. Little did I know that "going back to bed" sometimes takes 2 hours if Lily decides she wants to chat. That being said once she does sleep again she is usually awake in less than an hour. Nuts to sleep lets watch a movie.

6. Going to the grocery store/doctor/bank/gas station is a whole day affair. Not just the going and shopping but then getting everything into the house. Don't forget the baby!

7. No matter how hard she cries, no matter how hard she screams I CAN outwit, outlast and outplay in the game of Mommy Survivor. As Bob says "stay high level," my patience should be able to outlast her screams, right??

8. Forgetting something when you leave the house is just a common occurrence. I don't think I have left with everything yet. Oh well, many moms have done this without the diaper bag. Thank heavens for stores that sell diapers.

9. When I finally get a shower and clean clothes on the baby automatically barfs on them. Oh well, just wipe it up and proceed. Changing takes much to much effort. A little baby drool stain might become my latest fashion statement.

10. Watching Lily in Bob's arms while he talks to her and calls her Lily Bear is about the best and most precious experience ever.


P.S Never, never, never leave diaper trash out where Rocky can get it. And I thought my vomitting days were behind me. HA!